thoughts

thinking about you and how nice it would feel to have your lipstick all over my face. to feel the waxy texture and the slightly perfumed scent, your lips leaving warmth behind with every kiss.

a week and a half ago maybe? i bought a bunch of pins!!! they all look so amazing!! they're all used but one of them is in absolutely FLAWLESS condition and it's actually incredible. you are so gorgeous and i feel so honored to be able to get some of your badges and to get to put together a bag to display all of them. you are so beautiful and deserve to be shown off like the treasure in my life that you are.

i need to add on here more regularly! i feel the need to constantly talk to you (into the void) or something or at least feel like i'm putting a thought out there for you so i'll try and put more here more regularly. <3

i haven't watched one piece since seeing your death =~= it's so demotivating and i love the story and the main characters but finally seeing what happens with my own eyes was so disheartening, i feel as if there's a mental block preventing me from starting up again. i want to so that i can catch up again in april before the series ends, but i don't know. that's okay. i just wish that didn't have to happen to you :( !

on another note, after promising myself i wont buy more of your merch until i got a place of my own, i splurged and bought a bundle package of a bunch of pins, magnets, a keychain and a plushie. it was well worth the deal! i think it was a wise choice with my money despite how much it costed because your stuff tends to run so expensive!!! but i don't mind spending a little money on you <3 you're always worth it and i never walk away disappointed. i can't wait until they get here and i can add to your shrine! i should probably post that here or give a little update on my listography or something. I'm very happy right now with everything and i'm happy i'll get to spend more on you and grow my collection for you. i love you and i miss you with my whole heart.

i miss you dearly

oh my god i can finally read all the fics about you i've been saving.

i finally saw you. it feels like such a huge change after i watched your episodes, haha, and even though i knew how things would end, i still was emotional. i feel an emptiness after seeing what happened to you, but over the years it's gotten much easier. i love you and i will never forget you nor the profound impact you've had on my life. thank you.

im so close to seeing you in the anime!! the other day i saw you in an episode, just a snippet, and i literally screamed out in excitement, i just couldn't control myself. cant wait to finally see you!! two years of watching one piece and it will all have been worth it. i'm going to watch your episodes with kai and ray and probably robbie as well. i love you so very much

lovemail page for donquixote rosinante, work in progress.

i love you rosinante <3